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I hopped off the bed following Valdo and yelling at him to stop but he didn’t even glance back at me. I growled in anger and slammed the door behind him.

I walked to the mirror checking up myself and there was no sign that anything happened to me earlier. I couldn’t imagine that it was a long nightmare! That was insane! I feel crazy.

And why in the hell he said he should have a second Luna? What he means by that and why he didn’t explain to me anything but just left after dropping the bomb into my face?!

He said he wants to discuss something with me but that was a decision he already made earlier that was obvious!

Maybe he wasn’t so in love with me or maybe I didn't satisfy him in bed! Or maybe that he found out that he does have another mate and he wants her as well as me.

What the fuck I was talking about! That can’t be happening!

What if my nightmare was true and he wants to hide it?

But why?! If it was true, then he saved me at the end! I was sure of that!

Or maybe he— I really can’t get it! I feel lost and losing my mind already. Maybe I do have some issues with my memories or maybe he found out that I have mental illness that’s why he wants another Luna.

Fuck! What if he hates me in bed?1 but he said I was his first and that he was inexperienced like me!

Maybe he felt disgusted from my past and he decided to leave me?!

Oh my god! I wish someone could give me any explanation for that! even my wolf wasn’t talking to me. I wish I was trained or—

Yes, I do have someone who could explain to me what was going on.

All I have to do is to change my clothes and go to the beta and ask him.

I rushed back to the shower room to take a shower first, somehow I felt sweaty even so there was no sign over my body at all.

It was lukewarm water that relaxed my mind for a while, I even took a short nap in the bathtub. But surprisingly I didn’t dream of anything except those last words of Valdo ‘I will have a second Luna!’

I opened my eyes, sighing in frustration and getting out of the bathtub to take a look in the long mirror talking to myself ‘why did he do that? Maybe because I was sued after all by Derek and garrett. Yes, I’m stained! Not pure girl and definitely I don’t deserve him. Maybe I just need to prove to him how much I do love him.’

And yes, I won’t stand on his way anymore but I won’t leave the castle. And by that I found some bruises on my ankles! Yes, definitely it wasn’t a nightmare. That was from the chains that rogues locked me with!

Then I was awake and aware of everything that happened to me. but why did Valdo say it didn’t happen? Sure something happened annoyed him.

Maybe because— Derek wanted to fuck me.

Or maybe because I wanted to kill my father!

Or maybe because my father was a rogue king and that bothered him because I was born to a murderer and outlaws father!

But if so, then why could he only see the bad parts of that?!

Why can't he see that I wanted to kill my father because my father wanted to kill my mate?!

Why can't he see that yes I was born to be a murderer but they abandoned me and wanted to kill me! That means I was a victim and I needed him to console me.

Why didn't he see that Derek could have a good side? Why didn't he ask me or Derek about that to explain our plan back then?

Why do I have to suffer all the way and be alone forever?! Who in the hell could live my miserable life? Why do I keep myself in this life! I should end all the suffering by my own hands.

Or maybe I should just prove to him that I’m good and deserve his love.

I wore my clothes and rushed down the stairs to search for the beta and thank god he was in the great king office, I knocked the door politely asking for permission to enter.

I guess the great king was waiting for me or he smelled my scent. Aster all his powers were many. I heard that he could see with closed eyes.copy right hot novel pub