Chapter 92

CAMILLA’S PO.V

After training, it was basically just me sitting in my office doing nothing. By the time evening came around, Ryker made good on his promise and we sat in the garden alone. He offered to bring Audrey and I knew he had spoken to Lois but I didn’t want her to see me like this. I didn’t want my child knowing that I wasn’t as special as she thought. She thought of me like this super amazing person and I didn’t want to ruin it for her because a part of me wished I could be that for her.

I felt a longing and a pull towards the water but I couldn’t bring myself to act on it. My fingers itched and it took everything in my power for me to resist that pull but I did. I could feel Ryker’s eyes on me the entire time almost as if he could sense my internal struggle and was trying to find out a way he could help me. When our thirty minutes were up, I subconsciously reached my hand out towards the water but I caught myself.

“Why?” he asked but I stayed silent. “Is there a reason you keep denying yourself something that you obviously want?”

“I don’t want it,” I lied and he shook his head.

“Do you know what this reminds me of?” he asked but I stayed silent. “When you first came to the pack, you were so hesitant to receive even the slightest bit of affection. You fought me at every turn even though you knew that I was just trying to help you. Why do you do that?”

“That’s not what I’m doing.”

“Isn’t it?” he asked and I couldn’t bring myself to answer because I knew he was right. “Just accept help where it is given, Camilla. All I am asking for is for you to try. You want to, so why don’t you?

“Because I know I’m going to fail,” my voice was a soft whisper ax I spoke and I saw something crack in Ryker’s eyes. He sighed and reached out for me. I wanted to pull away but I let him hold me. I allowed him wrap his arms around me and I reminded myself that he could protect me. I allowed myself to feel safe in his arms.

By the time he pulled back, there was something softer in his eyes. It was almost as if he could finally see me for the first time. “Just try something.”

“I don’t know what to do.”

“Anything.”

There was a soft encouraging tone imbued in his voice. I reached out my hand and hesitantly willed the water to me. As if it could sense my hesitation, the ripples began but they weren’t stable. I tried to get a stronger grip on myself and tugged it towards me. The water rushed out of the fountain towards my hand and just held it suspended in the air in a bubble.

It was the simplest thing in the world but Ryker was looking at me with so much pride. I felt moved to do more so I tried some of the earliest tricks I had first learnt. I remembered the feeling of glee and excitement when I did them for the first time. I remembered hoow I showed it off to Christine every chance I got and she responded with pride and adoration.

“I’ve never seen your powers in action,” Ryker’s words snapped my concentration and the water went splashing back into the fountain. I turned to him in disbelief.

“You’re joking, right?” I asked and he shook his head. “I could have sworn that I used them around you once.”

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