Chapter 60

When I woke up the next morning, I got a huge sense of déjà vu. Wasn’t it just two days ago he fell asleep in my room and I practically kicked him out? He was still asleep but I had no urge to kick him out now. If anything, I wanted to just freeze time and stay in this moment where I didn’t have to think about what was going on or what had been and not even what could be. I could just sit and enjoy the moment.

His hand was thrown around my waist and held me in place. My back was pressed flush against his chest and I could feel his hot breath fanning my skin with every rise and fall of his chest. Our legs were practically entangled and I knew there was no way I was getting out of his hold without him waking up first.

I shifted slightly to try and dislodge myself from his arms but I miscalculated my movements because I accidentally rubbed up against him. I held my breath hoping he wouldn’t wake or notice but it was a foolish wish because I felt him stiffen against me and in the blink of an eye, I was on my back and Ryker was hovering over me. I offered him a slight smile and an innocent shrug but he just stared down at me.

After a beat of silence, he leaned down and kissed me softly. It was a soft peck and then he rolled off me and started to gather his clothes. I watched without saying a word trying to remind myself that him leaving was the best option for both of us but I couldn’t ignore the soft pang in my chest. I couldn’t quite pin point what the feeling was but it was something akin to grief.

Once he was dressed, he walked over to the door. I sat at the edge of the bed watching him leave then at the last minute, he turned around, walked over to me and angled my head for a bruising kiss. I was so shocked by it that it took me a minute to gather my wits and kiss him back. His tongue slipped into my mouth and I let out a breathy moan which resulted in him pulling away harshly.

“I should leave,” he muttered more to himself than to me but he made no move to go. He was absent mindedly rubbing his finger against his bottom lip as he stared at me. “Tell me to leave.”

I opened my mouth but the words wouldn’t escape. Try as I might, the words refused to leave my lips and I found myself with my mouth gaping open and closed like a fish. Ryker let out a groan and ran his fingers through his hair in frustration.

“We need to talk about this,” he said and I nodded in agreement. “Promise me, you won’t switch up on me later.”

“I’m not going to switch up on you Ryker,” I assured him and then my eyes caught the clock and I cursed. “You have to leave Audrey will be here soon and I don’t want her to see you.” Hurt flashed across his features and I let out a deep sigh. “She’s a child, Ryker, she won’t understand. Hell, I’m an adult and I still don’t know what we’re doing.”

“You’re right,” he said after a beat and then with one last look at me, he pulled open the door.

I wasn’t expecting to see Christine standing there and she blinked at both Ryker and I. I muttered a small curse under my breath. Ryker just nodded to her and walked past her. She looked at him as he was leaving and then turned back to me with a raised brow.

“Am I going to have to ask?” she asked me as she stepped into the room.copy right hot novel pub